The cave of feelings

The cave of feelings

These are random feelings, they are not directed to anyone specific. The reader can choose to apply them in anyway specific to match how they feel about something or someone

Jesus ……..where to even start …… The truth is for .. so long I’d Forgotten what those were (feelings) and i had been Stuck in one place , in a cave you might say, a deep dark cave. And then one day, I left some eggos in the woods and you came in to my life. And for the first time in a very long time I started to feel things again I started to feel happy…………(fast forward happiness is never a constant) ….

But then lately I guess I’ve been feeling…..distant from you , like you are pulling away from me or something …I miss taking long walks at sunsets with you , going for a drive and just let the windows down letting the wind blow through our hair ..

But I know you are getting..

older

Growing,

Changing

And I guess if I’m being really honest that’s what scares me ,

I DONT WANT THINGS TO CHANGE !! ..

So I think that’s why I’m writing this letter to try and maybe stop that change , to make things go back to how they were …. but I know that’s naive, that’s not how life works .. It’s moving always moving , whether you like it or not , and yeah sometimes it’s painful.

Sometimes it’s sad

And sometimes it’s surprising happy ..

So make mistakes learn from them and when life hurts you, because it will REMEMBER THE HURT!!

The hurt is good it means you’re out of that cave out of that deep dark cave .!!!

• So here I was trying to paint my relationship with food and my addiction to it and how I had forgotten how to be healthy and fit and just being confident in your own skin ..

How I’ve tried many times to lose the weight. I would get at a certain point and be happy with my weight then fall into old habits then Start seeing working out or the fit life in my rear view mirror.. Reminding yourself of the happiness you feel after you lose a kg on the scale or when you fit something that you thought you would never be able to fit into again those little moments are the ones that drive you , to keep doing it over and over again till we reach our destination.. Which is a fitness lifestyle.